What are you trying really hard to do? I think I'm trying really hard to do two things: build an interesting and sustainable company, build an interesting and sustainable personal life. I guess it comes down to trying really hard to build an interesting and sustainable life. By interesting I mean one that is capable of surprising me, challenging me, and changing me for the better. By sustainable I mean one that runs on less than it consumes, one that gives more than it takes, and one that can last a while even as it and I change along the way. In practice, in my own life this means having a company that includes some of my best friends and lets me work on stuff that I would work on for free if I had to. It means trying new things like office hours and online dating and taking pictures of all my friends and buying art from friends and drinks for friends and thinking about whales and foxes and happiness.
But I don't think I'm trying hard enough. This is what the hunger challenge has taught me... for the most part, I'm fairly wimpy when it comes to trying really hard because many things come easy. Why try hard to build an interesting and sustainable life when that's what I already have? At the same time though, there is no ceiling to how interesting life can be... I'm certainly nowhere near the ceiling at least. So I need to keep trying. What form does that take? That is the rub since most people equate working more and sacrificing more as symptoms of trying. So they work more and sacrifice more. But as symptoms, they are not the thing itself. The thing itself I think involves the right side of the brain and the feeling of trying to solve difficult problems.
This goes back to my theory that most of life as it is given to us is about hiding or fixing weaknesses. But life becomes most interesting when you build strengths. Take what comes naturally and then try really hard to improve it. I'm thinking about going to therapy in order to improve my happiness. Not to solve depression, but to become even happier. I also want to get glasses in order to see even better than 20/20.