I think I've been depressed

I think I've been depressed lately, masking it with an over-excited demeanor for work and other distractions, and then finding an unexplainable tiredness during other moments.

All of this baseball talk is so boring. Who needs another game to become so involved in, so particular about, when we have our daily boring lives? There are enough details, enough events that we tie to silly emotions to such as hope and fear, to need to subscribe to yet another meaningless system. With baseball, perhaps, it's so obvious and simple that it's a nice distraction. I've heard people explain it to me that way. Wouldn't an ant farm be just as effective? A complicated system that hinges on visible factors from day to day. Root for the ants in the bottom corner, or for the ants in the top corner. Introduce a pincher-bug for an exciting season. Sometimes I think national sports are just a way for our governments to exercise our war emotions during peacetime. I wonder if there's a greater chance that you're excited about the prospects of war if you're a huge sports fan. What a dull dull idea.